[ It really sucks admitting that Jesus is right. About the pain not being gone for certain, and about him trying to hurt himself again... probably. Drake knows he can be self destructive in certain ways, but he can usually keep mostly steady by leaning into his responsibilities. The people he's supposed to be looking after. The people who need him to be a certain way.
What if part of why he made that stupid choice was that he's been leaning into that too long? Jesus has been far more supportive about all of this than Drake feels like he deserves. Did that make him lose sight of his priorities? Usually he pushes himself too hard, but this time he just... let go. Either extreme is unhealthy.
He's quiet for a long moment, before turning his hand under Jesus' to twine their fingers gently. ]
Maybe. I've told you I'm bad at the whole knowing how much to put on somebody thing. Last time figuring it out got... messy.
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Date: 2022-12-18 02:47 am (UTC)What if part of why he made that stupid choice was that he's been leaning into that too long? Jesus has been far more supportive about all of this than Drake feels like he deserves. Did that make him lose sight of his priorities? Usually he pushes himself too hard, but this time he just... let go. Either extreme is unhealthy.
He's quiet for a long moment, before turning his hand under Jesus' to twine their fingers gently. ]
Maybe. I've told you I'm bad at the whole knowing how much to put on somebody thing. Last time figuring it out got... messy.