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[fireshow]

it was just me and alec in his room here
sitting on the bed
talking
saying goodbye to him

[hippie_ninja]

[He hurts for him, and hates there's so little he can do for him]

What did you tell him?

[fireshow]

the gist of it was goodbye
basically
that i miss him
but can't keep holding onto him like this

[hippie_ninja]

What did he do? If anything?

[fireshow]

we just talked on his bed
like we did when he was here

[hippie_ninja]

I'm so sorry, John. Letting go is the hardest thing.

[fireshow]

it's for the best
you know?
like i said
can't hold onto ghosts forever

[hippie_ninja]

No you can't. It's still hard. I'm proud of you.

[fireshow]

you let go of your ghosts?

[hippie_ninja]

I have. I hold onto the things I learned from them, but I don't let them hold me away from the present.

At least I try not to.

[fireshow]

yeah
it fucking sucks but
can't keep going on like that
you know?

[hippie_ninja]

Do you feel any better now?

[fireshow]

i mean
i don't feel amazing
just sort of
it is what it is

[hippie_ninja]

It is what it is.

Can I bring you dinner?

[fireshow]

you're pretty determined to come over huh?

[hippie_ninja]

Yeah. I'm worried about you. But if you need space I understand.

[fireshow]

aw
you worry about me?
that's cute

[hippie_ninja]

I'm pretty cute yeah

;)

[fireshow]

cocky too

[hippie_ninja]

You've never seemed to mind my cockiness

[fireshow]

or your cock for that matter

[hippie_ninja]

I was under the impression you like that part of me

[fireshow]

one of my fave parts yeah

[hippie_ninja]

Should name some other fave parts

[fireshow]

maybe
not today though