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Re: text; un: Leonard Koan

[hippie_ninja]

[this is a hard thing to admit but...]

Struggling a little with it. Try not to sleep with the same person twice in a row but don't have many partners.

[braveoff]

Why not twice in a row?
Not judging, just curious.

For the record, I'd help if you wanted.
I know I've never brought it up before but that's a me thing.
Don't ever wanna make anyone uncomfortable by offering in case they're not interested, you know?
But if you're short you can come by, okay?
Or not. No pressure either way, seriously.
This is part of why I never bring this shit up first, hah. Shutting up now.

[hippie_ninja]

Keeps anyone from getting too attached.

Is like that. Haha not to be too forward. But I'd be okay with that.

[braveoff]

Gotcha.

Forward's usually necessary with me, cuz of ^ that.
If you're cool with it I'm pretty much always down.

Everything else going okay?

[hippie_ninja]

Worried about contract. Coming up on my deadline.

Should talk in person?

[braveoff]

It's this month, huh?

Yeah, probably. You wanna meet up? I'm out right now, so wherever you want.

[hippie_ninja]

The 20th.

I'm at Marked, you know where it is?

> action

[braveoff]

Sure, I've passed it. Never gone in before but there's a first time for everything. Gimmie maybe twenty minutes?

[ He's just gotta hit checkout and hop the elevator. It doesn't take him the full time -- 14 minutes later, Drake comes into the club with a black line of body paint down his throat and a shopping bag in his hand. Instinct has him stepping off to the side to survey the new space, mark the exits and see what's going on. When he sees Jesus behind the bar that doesn't seem necessary, though. He heads that way instead, claiming a stool. ]

Hey. You got a break coming up?

[hippie_ninja]

In ten minutes I'm off, if you can wait that long. [He winks at him] Can I make you a drink? My treat.

[braveoff]

Even better. And yeah, go for it. Surprise me. But they gave me a voucher coming in, so I'd just look like a jerk who didn't tip.

[ He grins at Jesus, offering the drink token and glancing around again. With more of an eye for aesthetics this time than an escape plan. ]

When did you start here?

[hippie_ninja]

I started...a couple of weeks after I got here. Two, three? Vrenille's been great.

[he takes the voucher but waves off the notion of more] I'm not allowed to buy anything, I don't really need the tips anyway.

[braveoff]

Glad to hear it... I don't think I've met them.

[ That has Drake quirking an eyebrow. ]

You will be in a couple weeks. Unless you sign with a total asshole. But we can talk about that in ten minutes.

[hippie_ninja]

You'd like him. He's been here for years but he still went out of his way to help me out.

[He shakes up a cocktail for him, an easy martini]

If you don't like it I'll make you something else. But I'm not bad at them, from what I hear.

[braveoff]

Why is that a but? The longer you've been here, the more resources you have to help others.

[ Drake watches his friend shake and pour the drink, reaching for the glass when Jesus pushes it towards him with a little grin. ]

Honestly, I'm like the least picky guy on the planet. Looks like you know what you're doing, though.

[hippie_ninja]

[He laughs] Well as long as it looks like I do, I'm pulling it off.

Resource sharing though--people don't tend to go that way when they have enough. When their people are taken care of they tend to stop looking anywhere else. I think it gets worse when there's romance involved.

[braveoff]

[ Cut him some slack, he hadn't tasted it yet. Once he does, Jesus gets an approving nod. ]

Turns out that tracks.

[ It's good! But that observation... hmm. Drake's brow furrows a little, because it's definitely not the case for him. He's always looking. Always watching. Never thought there was anything special about that, really. Everybody he's found who didn't have an eye to help others was either just plain shitty or traumatized in some way. ]

You think that's how most people are?

[hippie_ninja]

[He draws a slow breath, thinking.]

I try not to. But things got ugly very fast in my world. I think when people are afraid of losing something, they hoard. And I think it's easier to keep holding onto things than it is to risk giving them to someone who might not give it back. Even harder to give things up knowing you shouldn't expect anything in return.

Help people to not be afraid and people will do incredible things for each other.

[braveoff]

[ Drake sips his drink and listens to Jesus' take, nodding quietly. That does make sense even if he can't relate. But how weird does that make him? Everybody around here seems to think he's the strange one, after all. That he's suspicious because he just gives. ]

Huh. I've never gotten all the way to not being afraid... just do shit anyway.

[ Sometimes when he shouldn't. ]

[hippie_ninja]

Yeah? [His smile is warm, a little playful] Does that mean you're afraid and came here anyway?

[braveoff]

[ Jesus gets a soft huff of laughter for that one. ]

Shit. I didn't even coming here was a risk. You gonna have me jumped out back, Jesus?

[hippie_ninja]

Hey, you don't know if I bite. [Hands up, the picture of innocence. He grins and makes himself up a drink, then pays for his and Drake's. He's officially off shift now.]

Come on. We can go sit over there and talk. [Negotiate, is that the term people use here?]

[braveoff]

[ Buddy, you could not take him. Just saying. Not that Drake says it either, just picks up his drink and follows Jesus to a table off to the side.

Calling it a negotiation would be another surprise to him, though... he didn't assume Jesus wanted to talk about signing with him, just get advice in general while he made his choice. Maybe use him as a sounding board to go through the options?

That'll be obvious enough once they settle, Drake leaning back in his seat and playing with the stem of his glass. ]

So you gonna tell me about your prospects?

[hippie_ninja]

[At this moment he's only looking for advice. He knows the sort of submissive he'll be, the trouble he'll be in, the ways he can be manipulated. He isn't eager to put someone into a position where they can be hurt by his decisions.

So he just shakes his head. What prospects? He has none.]

I don't even know where to start looking for what I need.

[braveoff]

[ ...what does that mean? Drake tilts his head in confusion, because 'worried' makes sense now but he doesn't really understand the why yet. ]

Then I guess we've gotta start with figuring out what that is. What you need?

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[hippie_ninja]

[He hesitates. He looks at Drake, then at his drink.]

I'm not a peaceful citizen. I never have been. And I know that falls back on the Dominant in a relationship.

The last person who rented me out of the Zoo was rough. Being contracted to him would be...hard. But at least he couldn't be used to manipulate me into doing something. So that's where I'm at: let the jail contract me with someone.

[Someone who will beat him. Someone he won't care about.]